A Crones View - Knowing The Path - Walking the Path [4]

The Transition As Between Knowing The Path And Walking The Path Is A Shift That Is Sensed Rather Than Any Particular Milestone Being Met. It is an important juncture. 

The ‘knowing path’ is a long and winding road. It’s challenging overcoming self and at times it will be all absorbing. Facing self involves the processing of emotional pain requiring both time and time alone. Gradually though one senses one has reached the other side. Clarity becomes ones new found companion with this bringing a enormous sense of freedom. Your emotions are more contained; no longer provoking stress given you have addressed the underlying issues and integrated your learnings the result of which is acceptance of yourself and others.  

The ‘walking path’ enables one to assimilate into ‘a whole’ disparate matters much like weaving the strands of fibre to make a blanket. The sum of your knowing is woven together instantaneously to form a picture of your current learning assignment. One notices everything rather than focussing on one particular aspect of a situation. What was once a silent bystander makes the reason for its presence known to assist one develop greater depth through recognising aspects of an experience that may have previously been hidden from view.

My discovery of the side dish being more important that the main dish related to my encounters with people at a venue where security guards are part of the chattels. Engaging in conversation with the security guard I discovered this particular guard was a ‘thinker’.  Returning some days later to deliver some forms I was about to give a private note to this security guard (the sharing of a web site) when I was interrupted by a loud voice saying stop; not permitted. And what did I do? I obeyed! Fascinating. Furthermore after transacting the business at hand, I said “read the note in my envelope.” What was I seeking? Approval? Forgiveness?

Pondering thereafter what I noticed about myself was that whilst I have developed a certain measure of deliberateness in claiming my right to self sovereignty, in this particular setting I fell under the spell of obeying. Not only did I give my power away as reflected in my manner of obeying automatically,  I gave my power away by sharing the contents of the envelope. My pondering reminded me of the concept of “noticing everything rather than focussing on one particular aspect of a situation” which is essentially about being fully present to ones complete experience not just selected parts. My main focus was delivering the forms and vacating a premises that uses coercion through the presence of security guards. By being mindful of the totality of the situation I noticed that my learnings came from the ancillary matter not the core reason for being there.

In terms of ‘obeying a command,' I could have given respect to all parties including myself by assuming a different manner. Manner is related to stance. Had I been ‘walking the path’ I could have retained my directorship of self. I could have acknowledged the situation that was occurring and once the objection of the person with the loud voice was ameliorated that being the control over all papers that entered the building, I could have proceeded to provide my private communication to the person concerned. From the perspective of the employee their objection was in line with their protocols. From my perspective it was fair enough as it was their building and if they choose to use coercion through the presence of security guards then I needed to act more deliberately in those circumstances. The essential learning was how I responded and the manner in which I had responded.

This challenge was a reminder to specifically assess every environment and not assume you will act the same when they differ. It reminds me of how we tend to spend more when viewing a product to purchase at say Selfridges or David Jones where one adjusts one’s spending criteria because one thinks its a better product notwithstanding that it may be brought at a lessor cost at a store down the road. I am looking forward to meeting this challenge of combining aloofness, and awareness of the environment whilst being present to my values and beliefs so as I maintain directorship of my life in all situations and at all times.  

The juice of life is in our learning about who we are and how we are ‘being,’ as reflected in our responses to situations. As we learn we grow. We develop our depth and breadth becoming more certain through living a more measured life. For myself having a lived a life being at the mercy of my emotions, this brings me joy. 

Entering the ‘walking path’ frees me up to live more deliberately as I listen and observe more intently to what the universe is presenting to me. As I said to the security guard in my note, it will be the clear thinkers who usher in the new earth; the era of peace which is upon us.  

Date: Wednesday, May 26, 2021

Authoress: Carol Lorraine

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